Fitness Update


Please be warned this post will include details about my health journey, including weight loss.

I have been trying to get out and do some exercise including walking and running to build myself up (I will do the London Marathon One Day!!)

I would also like to point out at this point I do see Medical Professionals on a regular basis and my weight loss is monitored – it is also advised by doctors due to my health conditions and in order for me to get certain hospital treatment I have to me the NHS BMI requirements ( do not get me started on my opinions on BMI!!)

But here is my progress:

The fitness scores at the bottom involve using a piece of machinery at the gym I visit to measure certain strengths, I believe the idea is to increase those scores. My goals are to reduce fat % and increase muscle % as well as lose some weight (kg).

Please don’t judge me, I know my weight is very high.

14/05/2018 05/06/2018
Body Composition
Weight (kg) 122 121.85
Fat (%) 45.22 44.04
Muscle (%) 26.6 27.42
Hydration (%) 41.89 42.67
Fitness Test Results
Overall 81 99
Lower Body Strength 1 3
Lower Body Endurance 108 200
Upper Body Strength 150 180
Upper Body Endurance 200 200
Explosive Muscle Power 41 103
Balance 70 104
Speed Ability N/A N/A
Heart Rate Recovery N/A 6

Mental Health Awareness Letters – 21st May 2018

As May is Mental Health Awareness Month, I had an idea to write a letter each day to a person, or group of people that have had an impact on my own personal health. The first portion of the month has been delayed, however I hope that I will catch up and there will be a daily post. Thank You for taking the time to read these and I appreciate any comments or support you can provide on each post.

Please remember that if you are struggling with your health, both physical or mental, there may be some triggers in these letters-please seek support if you find these letters trigger any distress. Look after yourself!!

Letter 21 –  Not everyone that has been abused has experienced physical abuse.

There are several forms of abuse, all of which are damaging.

I have never classed myself as an ‘abuse survivor’ because I always thought that what I went through is nowhere near as bad as many others and their stories. However, on the other hand my experiences have been damaging to me in their own right.

Those that have been abused, especially during childhood are far more likely to experience mental illness in their adulthood and often throughout childhood. The abuse may have been physical, sexual, emotional, neglect, verbal or psychological – each type can be identified in different ways, however people can experience more than one ‘category’ of abuse and symptoms can overlap. But abuse is not always obvious and I bet you have seen, walked past or sat by someone this week that is being abused/has been abused and you had no idea!! It can be easy to hide.

Support is crucial , sometimes you do not know what to say to someone when you find out they have been abused, but it is important not to treat a person differently, perhaps be more understanding and allow more time to process information (and of course be careful what you say). But you just need to be there.

Be Considerate




I am only 27….

I am only 27 years old (or young!) and I have lived through

  • Emotional Abuse and Bullying

  • Physical Abuse and Bullying

  • Self Harm

  • Anorexia

  • Bulimia

  • Binge Eating Disorders

  • Suicidal Thoughts

  • Loss of a Parent

  • Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

  • Anxiety

  • Depression

And you know what? I am still here!! Mental Illness is a difficult, harsh and life changing problem.


You can do it!! We are here for each other, if you are having a bad time, speak to someone – You can do it!!

Q & A Session

I must admit I did not think of this idea myself, I have seen a lot of Q & A sessions over the past two weeks and thought it was a great idea, especially as it gives readers a chance to get to know you, or in this case me 🙂

As Lady Gaga said,

“Here we go!”

1. What are you wearing? It is now past 11PM so I am wearing some very snuggle PJ’s. Very boring really.


2. Ever been in love? I am happily married.

3. Ever had a terrible breakup? Not as bad as some but I have truly had my heart-broken once.

4. How tall are you? 168cm.

5. How much do you weigh? I don’t want to put a number on it as I believe we can focus too much on numbers. I will admit that I am on the cuddly side and Doctors recommend weight loss.

6. Any tattoos? Oh yes!! 14 to be exact and several more planned.

7. Any piercings? I have both my ear lobes pierced, they also have healed second piercings that i could most likely put an earing through if I took the time. I also have both tragus’ pierced, my helix and forward helix on the one ear. I also have my belly button pierced.

8. OTP (One True Pairing)? Not really sure what this question means.

9. Favorite Show? I have a few shows that I watch over and over but my favourite show at the moment is The Big Bang Theory.

10. Favorite Bands:

11. Something you miss? Relatives that have passed.

12. Favorite Songs:

13. How old are you? 26

14. Zodiac Sign? Aquarius

15. Quality you look for in a partner? Honesty.

16. Favorite Quote? Face your fears, Live your dreams, Take the risk and feel the rush. Of course it is one of my tattoos – Done during my time in Norway.

Rib Tattoo

17. Favorite Actor & Actress? Favourite Actor = Daniel Radcliffe and the male TBBT actors / Favourite Actress = Emma Watson and the female TBBT actresses.

18. Favorite Color? Teal.

19. Loud or soft music? In the sense of type then soft but when it comes to listening, loud as my hearing is terrible.

20. Where do you go when you’re sad? Nowhere.

21. How long does it take for you to shower? Depends if I am washing/tinting my hair.

22. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? Anything from 15-60 Minutes.

23. Ever been in a physical fight? Yeah.

24. Turn on? Good Question….

25. Turn off: Clicking and chewing noises.

26. The reason you joined WordPress? Initially as an anonymous place to rant but now WordPress allows me to support and share my passion to help others.

27. Fears? I am not a huge fan of needles, but I am getting there. I fear death and fear itself.

28. Last thing that made you cry? Where shall I write the list!!

29. Last time you said you loved someone? To my Wife when she went to sleep.

30. Meaning behind your blog name? The first name was bywydpcoslife a mixture of Welsh and English and put my PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) at the centre of my problems. Now ‘I am still me no matter what’ portrays the message that mo matter the state of your physical, mental health or environmental factors – you are still you!!

31. The last book you read? An Open University Textbook.

32. The book you’re currently reading? Several Open University Textbooks.

33. Last Show You Watched? Grey’s Anatomy (Watching is in progress….)

34. Last person you talked to? My wife.

35. The relationship between the last person you texted? No relationship, I was texting to stop marketing messages.

36. Favorite Food? Indian Food.

37. Place you want to visit? Everywhere, but mainly Hawaii.

38. Last place you were? In bed.

39. Do you have a crush? My wife of course!!

40. Last time you kissed someone? Earlier.

41. Last time you were insulted? Well….the story would take far too long.

42. Favorite flavor of sweet? Milk Chocolate.

43. What instrument do you play? Piano- I have also taught myself or had some lessons in harp, guitar, violin, clarinet, saxophone, drums and keyboard.

44. Favorite Piece of Jewelry? My Trollbead Bracelet.

45. Last sport you played? Running.

46. Last song you sang? Naked – James Arthur.

47. Favorite Chat Up Line? I hate chat up lines.

48. Have you ever used it? See Above.

49. Last time you hung out with anyone? Today with the dogs.

50. Who should answer this question next? Anyone that wishes to 🙂