BSc (Hons) Open Student at The Open University (Final Academic Year = 2021 – 2022). BSc (Hons) Nursing (Adult) Student at University (Final [3rd] Year = Currently deferred). Student Leadership Academy (Swansea University) 2020 Participant. #FutureLeaders Health Care Support Worker. Chihuahua, Chorkie, Rankin Dragon and Tortoise Mami. Currently Divorcing. On a Healing Journey. Baby Witch Learning about Wicca.
I am warning you, if you hate people that say they have news but then they don’t reveal it, then this post IS going to annoy you!!
On the 28th of June 2018 I was given some exciting, happy and life changing news and I just want to shout it out from the roof top.
You will come to understand later in the Year why I cannot say anything at the moment but I now know what my life will be like in 5-10 years time!! I have fought and fought so long for this and people will not understand but I live so much of my life caring for others and not doing what I wanted and needed to do but doing things for the wellbeing of others. NOW IS MY TIME!!!!
There’s me thinking the above GIF would work but obviously not!!
Anyways I have been MIA for a few weeks and boy have things changed!!
I am not keen on change but things are looking up!!
Works going well, Life is going well, one main issue at the moment is Family, I don’t see them very often and it is getting me down. I have also been struggling with grief lately but I will be getting help with that shortly.
Ok that is enough GIF’s now!! (Can you tell I re-downloaded the app?!?!)
Don’t be ashamed to say you aren’t ok, or that you need help, you are important and you should be addressed!!
So I have been off work for about a month, in that time I have had few good days and several bad days, creeping into a depressive state; not experienced before.
Good days have included a house viewing and a mortgage application (successful but still attempting to find the perfect home – we saw one home but it had a mould issue and may have been too much work 😭) The disapointment of knowing we wouldn’t be getting this in need of work dream home led to insomnia 🌞🌙🌞🌙🌞
Bad days have included, sleep, neglecting myself in forms of not brushing hair or eating, and just sleeping. I have deferred another University Module, but I have made positive changes and next “years” Uni (october 2017) I have chosen two modules that will replace the credits at level 2 I should be finishing now, but now these new ones will focus on Mental Health and get me where I want to be.
I have made some positive steps in the last week, finally had my second referall telephone call from the primary mental health team….Why do they always ask ‘so tell me whats been going on’ Yh hello you have a referral letter telling you that and it is difficult to say it out loud. 😳😳 I don’t think they were expecting me to have so many issues and history of so many problems 😒
Went back to the GP and I am now on a new medication to try, After my hair problem from previous meds I had decided no more meds but the Primary Mental Health Care team made me realise that this is a part of me and if there is something that can reduce anxiety and panic then I should try it.
I want to smile,
I want to be happy,
I want to not worry,
I want to speak out and do talks and help speak out for those that need encouragement,
I want to inspire,
I want to have more confidence
I just want to be happy……..
I have also been sent a self help book from the Team for anxiety – so I will blog on that once I have read it!
🤔 I do have some exciting news too, BUT for now it has to be kept under wraps as it only fuels gossip and I find people talk about me enough as it is; without fuelling their fire 🔥🔥 🤔
We are heading on Holidays soon, camping and driving each day, it is about time we travel the Country we live in – North Wales here we come!!
I have reminded myself this week that even though my writing is not great, my grammar could be improved and not many people view this blog; it helps me, I also like to think that even if only one person reads my blog and gains some hope, happiness or a feeling that someone else feels the same way as them then I will feel that I have done something positive.
A lot has been going on since my last set of posts – The last update included my (long drawn out) appendicitis, my post op complications , anxiety and the battle with my weight.
We Moved House (Again),
I got sick (Again),
My weight went up (Again),
I finished my Duke of Edinburgh Gold Award and Diamond Challenge Award,
I joined the gym!!,
I got sick (yet again),
A bunch of my hair broke and fell out,
I came off my anxiety meds,
I started my sleeve tattoo,
My new venture……..
I Will be posting massively over the next day or two in order to catch up with everything!!
Things are changing, Time to make a change and do what is right for me….
Got to love a Big Bang Theory Quote #sheldoncooper
I realise I have been missing in action for about 8 months.
I also realised I may not have many followers but I have a few important followers and writing a blog was an aim I want to keep! It also keep me sane 😛
NEW UPDATE TO BLOG
I have gone through my old posts and updated them with my name : I was remaining anonymous, however I realise that I must be true to myself and allow others to read the blog of a real person, not a false name!
So this is me 👇🏼
My name is Stacie-Mai 😀
Although I do currently have BLUE HAIR !!
In the past 8 months (or so) a lot has changed:
🏠 We have moved house
🏥👉🏼📞🚑 I have a new job
💋💄 I run my own business (be prepared for the post regarding this)
📝 I have another blog – About my business
⚖ Finances have improved greatly
As always my weight has been an issue, up and down, but my best achievement has to be the 50 INCHES from all over my body I have lost. I feel that an achievement in itself!!